In light of Father's Day, I felt the need to write about my dad & how much he means to me.
Typically every little girl's First crush/Love is with her daddy. This true for me. My Daddy has always been & will always be My First Love.
My dad wasn't always there {physically} growing up. He was always in & out of jail. {Mostly because of drugs}. I noticed how my mom struggled to take care of me & my sister...One of the reasons I learned responsibility at a young age. I was the oldest & had to help mom with my lil sister. I remember as a lil girl, taking early, long bus rides to visit dad upstate. Ofcourse, then as a child I didn't resent or Love my dad any less. When I was 13yrs. old, we moved to Tampa, Florida from NYC. My mom wanted to continue to raise us in Florida because she felt it was in our best interest to do so. Dad soon came after. When I was maybe 14-15yrs old, My parents were having issues, & my dad had an affair with a woman he worked with at the time.He stood with this woman moments at a time, being back & forth with her & us. She had 2 children from my dad, a girl & a boy. At the time I remember being upset, confused, & even disappointed. I remember clearly the emotions & heartache my mom went through. Despite feeling mixed emotions about the situation, My Love for my dad did not change.
Dad wasn't into the same bad habits in Tampa as he was in NYC...The problem wasn't drugs & jail anymore, now it was deceit & betrayal. While mom & dad attempted to work out their issues, He was there for me & my sister...Softball games & all.
Through the years & looking back....Dad has changed alot. Could be age/maturity, location, or a combination of both. but the important thing is that HE HAS CHANGED for the best.
My whole point? No matter what mistakes he made or continues to make, no matter what kind of relationship him & mom had/have, the fact that he has two other children w/another woman...Whatever it was or is, My Father never gave me or my sister the impression that he did not Love us unconditionally & for that I Love him unconditionally!
Me & Dad are close, more like friends. He is very comfortable confiding in me as do I. No matter how much older I get, he never fails to remind me that I'll always be his Little Girl.
My Daddy is Ray Aguilera & he's THE BEST DAD EVER..
*HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY...I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. XOXO
YOUR LITTLE GIRL,
-JOANN "JO" AGUILERA
I don't know how I wound up on your blog. Through a series of clicks, I guess. I think someone must have had a hand in it, because I needed to read this post and hear what you had to say about our Daddy. My daughter ran away from home last Sunday to live with her boyfriend because they're in love. They are both 16. Her father's heart is broken and I am devastated. I don't know how old you are, or what your life experiences have been exactly, but you are a very wise and caring person. Thank you for sharing what you have. I hope my daughter can understand that in spite of the mistakes we've both made and the anger she has toward me, I love her with all of my heart. Your father is a very lucky man, but I bet he already knows that!
ReplyDeleteThank you,
Lori